A letter to my son

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As you know our family suffered a great loss on Jan 12, 1945. It is the day my father and your grandfather’s ship was attacked in Saigon by the Americans. He lost his life at age 31, together with many other physicians on board. They were all draftees from Taiwan as members of the Medical Corps of the Imperial Japanese Navy. You have never met him of course. Even I was only one year and 2 months old at the time when he perished, so I do not remember anything about him at all. Your grandma seldom mentioned him except in passing that they had a successful medical practice in 淡水Dansui, named 興亞醫院. That the patients sometimes paid in foodstuff in lieu of cash. And that he enjoyed a cold beer with lobsters after seeing patients. This peaceful life did not last long, though. Your grandfather soon received a draft notice ordering him to report to duty and to go on a transport ship in Kaohsiong. The ship 神靖丸 (Shinsei Maru) left the Port of Kaohsiong on Dec 1, 1944. I remember seeing, years later, a postcard which he mailed home in late Dec, 1944, from Hong Kong before sailing on to Saigon. Grandma had written an autobiography (in Chinese) and the parts that describe this period with her reaction to the news of his death were emotionally charged as you can imagine. I will try to translate it for you at some point.

And thanks to the internet, now I have a somewhat complete story of what happened on that fateful day as well as the circumstances leading up to it. I have now put together a narrative for you, so you can learn a most important chapter in our family history.

I am sure you recall the movie “Midway” which we watched together not long ago. In which I have pointed out one character, Admiral William Halsey, to you and mentioned that this person was the one responsible for the attack on Shinsei Maru. However, that was an over-simplification. The Battle of Midway occurred on June 4 –7, 1942, soon after the Japanese attack on Pearl Harbor (Dec 7, 1941). The Pacific War intensified after Midway and the battleground gradually moved westward through Guadalcanal, the Solomons, and eventually to the Philippines. The Japanese Empire was in retreat. And the Pacific Third Fleet Commander during that period was Admiral Halsey. This sets the background.

What I have found about Shinsei Maru are the following:

The ship was built in 1943 in 函館船渠 (Hakodate Dock Co) in Hokkaido with a tonnage of 2,700 tons. It was owned and operated by 栗林商船株式会社(東京) - Kuribayashi Shosen, Inc of Tokyo. Both companies are still in existence today.

It was docked at Cape Saint Jacques when hit by a torpedo from a Grumman F6F Hellcat and sank at 9:55AM, Jan 12, 1945. According to a book "Diary of a Military Doctor" written by a survivor Dr WU Ping-Chen, out of 59 doctors, only 18 survived; all 3 pharmacists died; 80 physician’s assistants, 25 survived; 200 medical workers, 52 survived. All together, of the 342 Taiwanese on board, 247 died. In addition, 12 soldiers - 6 died and 30 crew members - 10 died.

Inside Port Saint Jacques, in addition to Shinsei Maru, 6 other ships were also destroyed. Outside Port Saint Jacques, and inside Saigon Harbor, 9 ships in each location were also sunk. Port Saint Jacques is 120 km by land and 80 km by sea from Saigon.

The air raids were quite intense according to a US Naval Analysis interrogation report of Japanese Naval officers who witnessed the wave-after-wave attacks on Jan 12, 1945. And in the same report, the officer in charge of the transport operation for the whole region turned out to be one HORIUCHI Shigetada, Rear Admiral, I.J.N. He was a permanent officer of 31 years service. His principal war time combat experience was in the First Southern Advance Fleet in the latter half of 1942 and was charged with air protection of convoys during the last eight months of the war. Despite his extensive experience, he certainly had failed his duty in providing air and sea escorts for the transport ships. And yet he blamed it squarely on the High Command, see: http://ibiblio.org/hyperwar/AAF/USSBS/IJO/IJO-47.html

“Q. What were your most important missions?
A. The most important missions in my area were: first, to protect the shipping of oil from the south to the EMPIRE; second, the supplying of the PHILIPPINES. I must confess that both missions failed. It is my opinion that although the officers assigned to convoy duty fully appreciated the vital strategic importance of maintaining supply lines to keep the Combined Fleet able to operate at all, the high command took the counsel, short sighted, of the Combined Fleet Staff in allocating insufficient strength to the maintenance of the vital supply lines. Convoy officers were only specialist auxiliaries of the Main Force and became therefore important (sic, should be 'impotent')."

He died in 1984 at age 87, without having to pay for his war-time dereliction of duty. Indeed, the Shinsei Maru convoy (of perhaps 5 transport ships all together) was escorted by only one tiny mine sweeper (the No 102) en route from Kaohsiung to Hong Kong. And by another 500-ton gun boat, sunk in an air raid, from San Ya to Saigon. I hold him, on the Japanese side, personally responsible for the demise of Shinsei Maru.

So who were those US raiders and where were they based? We can surmise from WW-II time-line in the Pacific recorded in http://www.historyplace.com/unitedstates/pacificwar/timeline.htm#1945 which listed the following (partial list):

January 3, 1945 - Gen. MacArthur is placed in command of all U.S. ground forces and Adm. Nimitz in command of all naval forces in preparation for planned assaults against Iwo Jima, Okinawa and Japan itself.
January 4, 1945 - British occupy Akyab in Burma.
January 9, 1945 - U.S. Sixth Army invades Lingayen Gulf on Luzon in the Philippines.
January 11, 1945 - Air raid against Japanese bases in Indochina by U.S. Carrier-based planes.

Notice the last entry: The key is “US Carrier-based planes”. The question is which carrier(s)?

According to http://www.cv6.org/1945/1945.htm:
“Enterprise's first strikes of 1945 were against airfields on Luzon, Philippines, followed by raids into Indo-China, and five major strikes on shipping and installations along the Indo-China and South China Sea coasts.” Therefore USS Enterprise is the prime suspect; although there were other carriers as well. This is further confirmed by http://www.sandcastlevi.com/sea/enterprise/voych09c.htm:

“By December 1944, the Enterprise was officially operating as a night attack carrier with the USS Independence. In this role, she participated in attacks in January 1945 as part of the invasion of Luzon. During this operation, the American carriers sank a total of 300,000 tons of Japanese shipping and destroyed over 600 aircraft, to a loss of 200 American planes."

There is another entry on Jan 12, 1945, in http://www.cv6.org/ship/logs/vtn90/vtn90-4501.htm#19450112

This is the VT(N)-90 Squadron (The Avenger dive-bombers) based on USS Enterprise:

“Thursday [i.e., Jan 11, 1945] evening we had an extensive briefing session on the Camranh Bay and Cape St. Jacques areas which were considered among the most likely hiding places for the Jap fleet.”

And on Jan 12, 1945: "The pilots on the strike were Lt. Kippen [Russell F. Kippen], Ens. Jennings [Joseph F. Jennings], Ens. Landon [James D. Landon], Lt(jg) Ashton [John M. Ashton], Lt(jg) Cromley [William L. Cromley], Lt. White [Melber A. White], Lt. Cummings [Ralph W. Cummings], Lt. Collins [C. B. Collins], Lt(jg) Brooks [Charles E. Brooks] and Ens. Atkinson. Four VT and 12 VF from the Independence also joined us in the attack. The convoy was located in Kanfong Bay and turned out to be a group of fifteen ships (the convoy and its escorts). There were three DDs, four DEs, three SA, two FTC, two TB and one CL of the Katori class (though the latter was not positively identified until later). Kippen led the attack, going for the CL and scoring a straddle with some damage done. Jennings went after a DD scoring two hits and strafed an SA. Landon made runs on a DD and an SA getting a direct hit on the stern of the latter, leaving it settling and dead in the water. Ashton and Cromley both attacked SAs with no hits, and both were hit by enemy fire in the wing or elevators. Both returned, scared but safe. Lt(jg) Brooks and Lt. Cummings both went for DEs and DDs but scored no hits.”

There was, however, no mention of an attack on Cape Saint Jacques. It is unknown if this was an omission or a wartime confusion. It did mention that the mission was joined by fighter planes from USS Independence (i.e., the VTs and the VFs). It is possible that one of the 12 VF fighters (i.e., the Hellcats), rather than the ones from the Enterprise, might have been responsible for sinking Shinsei Maru. The fighters from USS Independence did destroy 9 merchant vessels during several tours of duty. The pilots mentioned in the log above all died later when attacking Okinawa and Taiwan.

Even more details can be found in http://www.armchairgeneral.com/forums/showthread.php?t=25513&page=47

In which the destruction of Shinsei Maru was recorded, among a very long list, as “… oil tanker Kumagawa Maru and transports Shinsei Maru and Toyu Maru off Cape St. Jacques, 10°20'N, 107°45'E…"
"Combined, TF 38 sank 41 ships on this day.”

This was known as “Operation Gratitude” carried out by Task Force 38 under Vice Adm John S. McCain (who was the grandfather of Senator McCain). And TF38 turns out to be a large scale operation consisting of 5 Groups. And one of which TG38.5 had USS Enterprise and USS Independence as the core carriers. The VT squadron mentioned above was part of this group.

We know the Third Fleet Commander at that time was William Halsey, Jr (1882–1959). In January, 1945. As a fleet commander, Halsey was then responsible for the death of Shinsei Maru. More directly involved, in executing the war plan as the commander of TF38, was John S McCain Sr (who died in 1945). The pilot of the Hellcat who administered the fatal blow to Shinsei Maru remained un-identified.

The Enterprise suffered severe damages not long after; the last one on May 14, 1945 incurred by a Japanese Kamikaze pilot. 14 died and 34 were wounded.

And unexpectedly in the archives of 神奈川新聞 (Kanagawa News) http://www.halmoni-haraboji.net/exhibit/archives/disp00/S0016.html, I came across the following:

1955.05.26 - 戦時中米軍機にサイゴン港で撃沈された神靖丸の引揚 元日本兵300名の遺骨を発見 元乗組員の生存者は「軍が台湾高雄市で徴収した台湾現地人で身分は医務工員だ」

This is a collection of headlines. Surprisingly, news on May 26, 1955 reported that the wreckage of Shinsei Maru was discovered and the remains of 300 Japanese soldiers found. There is a key phrase here "引揚, Hi-Ki A-Ge", which means “sent back to the home country”. The survivors (in reference to 1945) were identified as soldiers from Kaohsiung City in Taiwan and were Taiwanese medical workers. No one informed our family of this discovery, though. There was no international communication between Taiwan and outside world at that time, at least not for our family.

We have known since 1989 when Grandma finally located your grandfather, enshrined together with 28,000 other Taiwanese war-dead, in 靖国神社Yasukuni Jinja in Tokyo. In late October this year, I have also visited Yasukuni and was directed by a friend to the nearby 千鳥ケ淵戦没者墓苑 Chidorigafuchi National Cemetery. Which, to my utter surprise, was built in 1959 to receive the remains of WWII war-dead, including those recovered from Indo-China. In one instant, I realized that this was where the remains sent back from Vietnam in 1955 were buried. It has 6 floors all underground. This is your grandfather’s final resting place!

The Americans started air raids on transport ships on Jan 11, 1945 and Japan surrendered on Aug 15, 1945 – a mere 7 months later. According to one of the survivors Dr WU, they were all on deck enjoying the scenery, then your grandfather decided to go below deck to study. And soon after, the torpedo hit. The ship sank head first and that was where the doctors’ quarters were located. Your grandfather could not escape his fate – and our family suffers the consequence to this day. It is important to remember that we must not dwell on this tragic past (we never have, not your grandma, nor I). I am also so very grateful that Grandma stayed with us for so long; although Christmas dinners without her will never be the same. One consolation maybe that they are now finally together, after 63 years.




神靖丸於 12/03/1944 11AM 抵達香港

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根据近代世界艦船事典 (The Encyclopedia of the World, Modern Warships) 記載:

神靖丸一行 [屬"ホ104船團" - 其中包括華頂山,此船在神靖丸遇難後,於1945年3月23日4:28PM 被美第58特遣隊戰机擊沉,見下引] 於1944年12月1日清晨8:30從高雄出發,12月3日早上11點抵達香港.船隻總數不明,可能是5艘货船,但只有一條掃雷艇 (mine sweeper) 護航 (第102号).


華頂山丸 [Ka Cho San Maru]



2427(3878)T 284.0x42.0x(23.3)ft R 1200hp 12.31knt. [註:此船排水2,427 噸,与神靖丸相當,滿載排水3,878 噸; 尺寸: 284x42x23.3呎; 1,200馬力; 速度: 12.31 knots]


据作家前橋松造先生報導 (2006/平成18年12月11日), 華頂山丸最後孤單的遭遇如此:

"...錦江湾 [註:鹿児島県] から沖縄・台湾に向かって輸送船が数多く出るが、ことごとくトカラの沖で潜水艦から撃沈される。錦江湾を出た船団、昭和18年12月8日~昭和20年3月21日に全部で16船団(延べ197隻)、その中でも悲劇だったのは「華頂山丸」という船で、桜島沖で待機していたらB24に空爆を受け同行の3隻は沈没し、残った1隻の「華頂山丸」は沖合に向けて出発せよという命令を受け出発、大島の笠利沖で沈没する。..."


華頂山丸 (1925)

另,第102号掃海艇船史, 見: http://wpedia.mobile.goo.ne.jp/

1944年(昭和19年) 9月28日竣工。日本海軍籍に編入、横須賀鎮守府籍。第2遣支艦隊に編入する。 [註:第二遣支艦隊負責華南, 下轄第十五戰隊旗艦"五十玲"輕巡洋艦, 下轄砲艦"嵯峨","橋立", 廣東方面特別根據地隊, 廈門方面特別根據地隊, 特設第四掃海隊等.]
大湊*付近で終戦を迎える。 [*註:青森県]




Iris Liu 提供給EyeDoc一個新竹市文化局網頁, 其中提到:


首先: "中日戰爭爆發"應是"太平洋戰爭"爆發之誤.日本在太平洋戰爭開始失利,是絕大多數台灣人被徵召參戰的主因.

其次: 吳平城醫師"軍醫日記"的神靖丸人員存歿名單中也記有"新竹州連煥文醫師",應是与上文的連煥文同一人.因為文中"民國31年的翌年"是1943年.這一年一直到年底,太平洋戰爭從珍珠港,中途島才西延到所羅門群島一帶.美軍轟炸中南半島(包括西貢在內)從1945年1月11日即一年多之後才開始.所以連醫師"不幸遇炸身亡"應是与神靖丸遇難同一事件.


謝謝您, Iris Liu.



May she rest in peace.







Pearl Harbor Raid and Forgiveness

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More than two years ago, we traveled to Hawaii to attend my husband's 40th college reunion. After the reunion cruise, we decided to visit Pearl Harbor. While watching a historical film that vividly depicted the Dec. 7, 1941, raid on Pearl Harbor, I couldn’t help but think that if Japan had not raided Pearl Harbor, perhaps my dad would not have lost his life at the young age of 32. Tears streamed down my face as I thought that if the Japanese hadn’t attacked Pearl Harbor, the United States might not have entered WWII and there would not have been war in the Pacific Ocean between Japan and the United States.

I do not harbor hatred against the culprits of Japan or the Americans who sunk the ship “Shinsei Maru” on which my father served as a military physician, It was not until recently by this blog, I learned that the Task Force 38 had sunk “Shinsei Maru”, thus I lost my dad even when I was still in my mom’s womb. Back then, the vice Admiral of the Task force 38, John S. McCain SR. happened to be the grandfather of the Republican candidate for President of the United States this year, (Note: now he has lost the election) . This discovery hadn’t made me not want to vote for Mr. McCain, unless there are other legitimate reasons for me not to. No, I could still have voted for him because I think that in international affairs and wars, he should have a better understanding and insights, because he had been a prisoner of war during the Vietnam War. Generally speaking, Republicans care more about international security issues and perhaps more favorable towards protecting Taiwan’s democracy. What I am trying to say is “I have neither hatred against those who caused my dad to die untimely, nor hatred against their descendants. ” ( p.s. I wrote this part long before the election took place)
Recently, a friend of mine in her e-mail to other friend (c.c. to me) mentioned that my father was a former military doctor, serving the Japanese imperialists…etc. She didn’t criticize my dad purposely, yet I felt my feelings was hurt. Her comment was extremely unfair for those who had been drafted by the Japanese government to the Pacific War. Just as Eye Doc. said in this blog:
『Taiwan's post-war phase was kind of being awkward. After the defeat and the withdrawal of Japanese government from Taiwan, there came Chinese Nationalists. It was like changing dynasties, the new political power liked to judge beyond time and history: those who survived "Shinsei Maru" were sometimes called Chinese traitors or Taiwanese traitors, because they had served China’s enemy Japan. They were not able to argue and defend themselves since they were simply politically incorrect. Just think, after Japan had governed in Taiwan for 50 years, if the people of Taiwan identified with Japan as their own country then, was it unreasonable? They had been through Japanese education, all their lives. Should we criticize them if they had developed a kind of mentality of being Japanese citizens? How can we criticize and blame them then?
Although my father had the opportunity to run away from the Japanese Navy, he did not run away. Although some people had urged him to escape long before he went to serve as a military doctor. For example, my maternal grandpa had told him that when his ship landed in Hong Kong, he should run away. Because my grandpa's generation started far before Japanese rule in Taiwan, of course, he could not identify with Japan as his own country. In Dr. Wu Ping Cheng’s book “ A Military physician’s Diary”, he mentioned that my dad, as well as a few others had the opportunities to see their relatives or acquaintances in Hong Kong or Vietnam, they certainly had a great opportunity to run away. (Of course, if the escapees were captured, they would be condemned to death penalty.) However, Dr. Wu also mentioned that if anyone ran away, the rest of the comrades in the ship, would all be punished to lose their freedom. Therefore, I think my upright law-abiding dad, wouldn’t violate any military laws, let alone escape. My dad wouldn’t like to penalize his comrade-in-ship, and most likely, he probably thought it was his duty to defend Taiwan and Japan, he had to do it that way, no turning back at all. (Now, we may consider that they had been brainwashed by a foreign government Japan and had developed silly loyalty to Japan. That was unfair to them.) I happened to know that some people used “red envelope” money to avoid being drafted; it is an unfair world, honest people died as victims, but bribers got to keep their lives. I heard that Dr. Kuo Hong-Wen was not originally on the drafting list, however, another doctor used red envelope, to avoid being drafted, and recommended Dr. Kuo as his younger substitutes. Once a cousin cheerfully told me that it was his father’s luck, not to be a doctor, or else his dad should be the one who died, not my dad, because his dad was my dad’s eldest brother, and only one doctor would be drafted from a family.( He had to hear this drafting information from his dad, my big uncle, as each regional physician bureaucracy has slightly different priorities of drafting.) I listened with sadness, because my dad was determined to be a medical student out of being a filial son, in order to take care of his father's clinic, so that his father could have an early retirement. I heard my dad’s eldest brother wouldn’t study but fooled around all the times so he couldn’t get into any medical school at all. You wouldn’t think the one who was filial and studied diligently would harvest early death, while the prodigal son would keep life as his reward.
Furthermore, I have never thought of my father and the "Yasukuni Shrine" being connected, until China protested former President Lee Teng-hui’s visit to "Yasukuni Shrine" to commemorate his brother, I thought then perhaps my dad’s name was in that famous shrine too? Later on, Eye Doc. Confirmed my guess was correct.
Just as Eye Doc. said that those who survived the sunken Shin-sei Maru were seen as traitors to Taiwan, because KMT then took over Taiwan. Such a serious charge against them, was very unfair indeed.
However, people shouldn’t continue to live in the past and keep thinking, "If something had not happened that way, how nice would the world be! …etc." or "what if something happens this way or that way…etc.”, the "what if" monsters will create unfounded, unnecessary fears for the future. To keep living in the past with endless regrets, remorse and "what ifs" is very unwise too. What is more important? Isn’t it "the present" ? what does God want us to do now? Shouldn’t we treasure our time now to do something to glorify God and benefit others?
I used to think that it was very unfortunate that I was born posthumously. But now I think I have been very fortunate to be born as if to catch the last train before my dad left for the war. During the air raids of WWII, I brought so much troubles to my mom and grandpa. It was fortunate that grandpa was a doctor and I could be born at home in his own clinic. However, my grandpa had to blacken the windows of a delivery room just in case if I was born in the middle of night when there were air raid sirens, a light could still be on inside the dark delivery room. Of course, I could also be born a worm, right? The evolutionist wants us to believe that we humans are not different from other animals . (In one of Kafka’s novel,” Metamorphosis”, he described the terror of the main character waking up one day in the morning only to find himself having turned into a bug.) From another point of view, since we are all born humans, we have already won the lottery, because we have defeated the odds of not being born, being aborted or just being born a worm, not a human being.
Torpedoes, bullets, bombs don’t have eyes, they kill anyone passing through their paths. Task Force 38 didn’t know my dad’s ship was a medical ship because there was no red cross mark or flag on it. Or else, perhaps they wouldn’t have bombed the ship. I do not harbor any bitter resentments towards Japan or US, but I am well aware of the pain and sorrow the war could bring to any family just like my family. I’d hope that there is no more war in our world and no longer there is any family who suffers the loss of their loved ones as a result of the war. However, it is easier said than done; people do have different religious beliefs, there is racism, bigotry and so on ..., it is really hard to have real peace on earth. Only by looking up to the cross, listening to how He forgave those who nailed Him to the cross, that we would be able to forgive our enemies with the indwelling Holy Spirit.

Jesus said: "Father, forgive them because they did not know what they did."



我們台灣人醫師一批一批地被召往台北淡水河畔,第九號水門邊一片古老建築的地方、受訓一個月。每梯次約一百二十名,每早起來體操、唱軍歌、跑步,同時也天天到當時台大醫學部和熱帶醫學研究所聽講義。沒想到戰爭日亟,受訓未完,就有分別是五名和七名的兩班先被派遣出航。醫生被徵召的條件是醫專或醫大畢業,四十五歲未滿的開業醫師或者病院服務的住院醫師。原則上由年輕力壯的先召,負責遴選的台灣各地醫師公會,有權利稍加修改。有的主張四十歲以上的應該先徵召,理由是他們已有相當經濟基礎,萬一戰死,子女生活也不成大問題。後來發現末結婚的醫師,思想有問題的醫師都成為首先徵召的目標,如與東港事件有關的張鏡川、郭鴻文醫師(末婚)就是這樣被徵召的。東港事件其實是日本高等特務中了盟軍的宣傳,以為東港方面台灣人暗中連絡盟軍計劃登陸,事情鬧得天翻地覆,報紙卻隻字不提。這事也牽連到台南市名律師歐清石氏的坐牢(歐氏在獄中被盟軍飛機炸死)。這是日本統冶台灣最醜陋的政治的一頁。當時都郡市醫師公會和有關督導機構閉門造車,自行訂立徵召順序,真是權大氣粗,誰反對誰就被戴上無愛國心的罪名,一輦子洗不清,其實台灣人除非是精神有問題,誰會有愛國心呢? 有的人,有高人指點,自願加入了軍部或機場服務,巧妙地避開了這場劫數,令大家羨慕不已。

我於一九四四年九月二十五日接到命令,九月二十八日在高雄港集合,這時已經是我受訓完畢後六個月了。我們這一梯次出發以後,戰局惡化。美軍控制西太平洋,日軍便無能力也無船隻可載人出去。也末能逆料這一批台灣人,竟遭美軍擊沉於南中國海,而成為台彎人沉船死亡最多的一次,計有: (從略 請參看本部落格存歿名單)
這三本日記已經保存四十二年。本來戰後就想好好重寫,因原文是日文,寫得又簡單,子女也看不懂,改寫漢文,自己又無自信,遲遲未實現。最近長子光太常說:「你常常講那時情形如何? 不如全部寫出來好了。」因此,我下了決心,寫給子女、親戚、朋友作為一頁歷史,並獻給戰友們以及家眷,也表一番心意。

後記 (posted by BH): 非常感謝吳醫師的「軍醫日記」,我終於知道我爸爸沉船的名稱「神靖丸」。我爸爸的沉船叫什麼名字,一直是一團迷 , 我們一無所知, 直到吳醫師的文章見報 (太平洋時報)。老實說,我起先的態度是不想也不忍心知道詳情,因為太痛苦。所以都睜一眼閉一眼, 掃瞄而過,不想仔細讀呢。說來慚愧,辜負吳醫師的用心良苦,也不曾在他生前向他表達謝意。

吳醫師的日記本放在他的衣袋中,陪他在洶湧的西貢海,渡過了美軍的轟炸,又泡了一整天的機油與海水,早已破爛 ; 這本日記保存了四十二年才發表見報(他在他的「前言」裡說道:『本來戰後就想好好重寫,因為原文是日文,寫得又簡單,子女也看不懂,改寫漢文,自己又無自信,遲遲未實現。經長子光太鼓勵,下了很大的決心,寫給子女、親戚、朋友作為一頁歷史,並獻給戰友們以及家眷,也表一番心意』。)

吳醫師的努力與毅力是何等的難能可貴!「軍醫日記」也已絕版、他為我們保存這一頁鮮為人知的台灣歷史、讓我們好好珍惜!我把他的「前言」幾乎全部登出,謹向他在天之靈致最大的敬意與謝意! (事先未經其子女及發行人同意,敬請見諒。)

P.S. Here is a link for you as an extension reading to Dr. Wu's foreword in his “A Military Doctor's Diary”, it is my personal family story and testimony. Any comments are very welcome! (Or if you prefer to read in English click the English link below: these two links are twin of the same article.)

Pearl Harbor Raid and Forgiveness

心絃交響 : 被遺忘的一頁台灣史「神靖丸」



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Update 12 - 高雄州李飛鵬醫師

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神靖丸人員存歿名單源自吳平城醫師"軍醫日記"頁218 (1989年出版),其中登載高雄州生還者之一"*李飛鵬", "*"為"回台後病死者"的註解,後來的日文版”海軍軍醫日記”(1996年出版)也同樣記載.生還者名單以常理判斷不應有誤.但這位李醫師似乎与另一台北州李飛鵬醫師同名同姓但不同校.很遺憾的是吳醫師已過世,無法求証.

最重要的一點是台北州的李飛鵬醫師与神靖丸無關, 1945年從台北帝大醫專畢業後即在新店當開業醫,直到七十歲退休,仍然健在,現住台北市.謝謝李醫師家屬們的指正.



上提乃源自吳平城醫師"軍醫日記"頁218 (1989年出版) 神靖丸人員存歿名單中高雄州生還者之一李飛鵬醫師返台後病逝.

日前李醫師的孫兒和外孫王先生兩位來函告知,李飛鵬醫師是平壤醫學院畢業.在船難生還回台之後,一直在鳳山開業 (同仁醫院),直至約30年前因病去世,享年67歲.

原來不知李醫師船難是否與神靖丸沉沒同一事.幸好李飛鵬醫師留下一張船沉地照片,註明是聖雀岬.讓我們很有信心的知道李醫師是與最後一批出征的台灣人醫師及醫務人員同行.而且吳平成醫師名單的這一部份完全正確. 同時李醫師外孫王先生也回憶: "...據我母親轉述,沉船當時有些人往船艙下面跑,而往上逃生者,大都能夠得救。 因我外公不黯水性,因此抱著船板浮木而獲救。"這和幾位倖存者的經歷一致.





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前排左二為林鵬飛醫師,是全班最年輕的同學,當時年齡僅17歲又兩個月.因為太年輕被暱名為Das Knabe.是桌球棒球校隊選手.前排右二為淡水鄭子昌醫師(EyeDoc之父).照片是EyeDoc 11月初返臺,訪臺中時,林醫師當面贈送.非常珍貴.





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如果家屬要尋找合祠在靖國神社內的親人,可以填寫以下申請書.當場交給神職人員入內調查.如果不能親自出面的話,可以用正式委託書,由住在日本的朋友,代理人代辦.親人氏名一欄以日治時期戶籍姓名為準.如果無居日友人,請聯絡 hmcheng542@msn.com


靖国神社 と 千鳥ケ淵戦没者墓苑

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Eyedoc東京尋父之行 (10/30/2008):

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根据神奈川新聞1955年神靖丸乘員300人遺骨引揚(ひきあげ)的報導,及1959年3月建成的千鳥ケ淵戦没者墓苑目的就是收納海外戰場無名戰死者.如無意外,此墓苑應是神靖丸醫師,醫事助手及工作人員最後安息之地.網站在: http://homepage2.nifty.com/boen/


遺骨収集の実施: 1952年開始,見http://www.mhlw.go.jp/bunya/engo/seido01/index.html




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景福醫訊 - 台大醫學院校友會刊 - 25卷9期會登載"神靖丸"一文,紀念被征召15名校友,其中11人陣亡.以下節錄一小部份:

"...臺大醫學院有11位校友,在1945年1月12日,一起戰歿於離西貢海路80公里的聖雀岬Cape St Jacques 港內.他們所乘被美軍擊沉的日本海軍征用運輸船,就是神靖丸.但是這段歷史,學校並無記錄,各地醫師公會也無通告,連早期開同學會時都還無人知曉. 倖存者歸台後,各奔前程,全心全力工作,不再或不能再回憶一場噩夢般的生死往事..."

"...被徵召的神靖丸醫生和助手們,一共342位,正是台灣醫界的菁英.他們的經歷介於日本戰敗投降前7個月及台灣戒嚴時期之間.正所謂的尷尬時期.247位戰歿者像泡沫一般,居然從歷史中消失. 這麼鉅大的台灣教育與社會的損失,竟然只給家屬們留下永遠的傷痛和懷念..."


11/16/2008: 文中名單高雄州李鵬飛醫師可能不是從台北帝大醫專畢業.謹此更正.



...小時候,曾經不慎被小朋友推入糞坑,還好前一天,人家剛來挑肥,將糞坑的水位降低了, 所以我才未淹死。國小時,有 一次感冒,趁佣人去拿開水給我服藥時,自己一口氣,把六包退燒藥全部吃下,女傭年輕又缺醫學常識,還驚奇地跑去告訴母親,誇獎我能幹,幸好父親緊急救治,才末發生危險。有一次,郭束昭姑姑的小孩---當時3歲的李慶安醫生,因不慎陷入軟泥裡,幾乎沒頂,我竟然能奮力把他救了起來。在東港海邊,我也曾跳入海水中玩, 突然一個大浪打來,驚慌中自己爬回岸上。從小,神便在暗中一再保守我的生命。...有一次我想利用休假回台灣探親,但因少一張船票,而作罷。此艘原先我要搭的船,高千穗丸,在航行途中因觸水雷,而發生了震驚當時的沉船事件,船上有一些台灣人罹難。...8/9/1945長畸發生了舉世皆知的原子彈爆炸事件。...有一位來自家鄉東港國小的鄰居,曾是我在長崎純心女子高校的同學,她因被原子彈炸傷,特地到我姑丈的診所求治,我便照顧她,直到去世為止,並為其遺容化妝。...在我45歲那年,有一次與先生開車,經過潮洲大橋時,車門突然開啟,我摔了下去,所幸蒙神保守,讓我只是輕傷...



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看了 郭鴻文醫師么妹麗華女士描述的「在家不許歡笑」的童年, 心裡有很大的衝擊, 難過, 不捨與感謝. 感謝家母沒有下這一道「不許唱歌, 不許歡笑」的禁令. 也感謝家母在自身深沉的痛苦裡, 仍然用厚厚的母愛澆灌我. 雖然如此, 我卻只看到我沒有的, 而不知珍惜我所擁有的, 成天好像唱著天倫歌「人皆有父, 翳我獨無...」人比人, 真是氣死人! 有著說不出的自我矛盾.

所以不瞞你說,我特別鍾愛「心有千千結」(Knots) * 裡面的一篇「無理頭」, 把它翻譯出來.--雖然是精神病患者的獨白囈語, 然而卻也反映出人性裡最深層的空虛寂寞,那份無法進入自己靈魂深處的囧狀與無奈。搞不清自己是在裏頭或外頭,在眾人裡頭,卻沒有歸屬感, 邊緣人的深沉寂寞。


( 詳見下文http://funp.com/t174950 )

年紀小小的我,老實說一直不想做「我」自己,我希望我能做「別人」--有父親的「別人」。而且這個「我」字,叫我很困惑。因為其他的人也在想這個「我」如何又如何...看到嬰孩誕生,我就想又來了一個將會思考「我」的人, 這個「我」又從何而來呢? 我常在想,為什麼他人心目中的「我」字與我的「我」字會不同呢?為了這個疑惑,讓我幼小的心靈想的暈頭轉向,似乎嚐到一點點小哲學家的痛苦,把簡單的「我」字變得十分地複雜。狂妄自大與自悲常常交替互換, 搞不清楚「我」是誰 ?

直到我長大以後,才在主的愛裡頭,找到「我」的定位 --知道「我」雖渺小,主卻願意為我死,這樣的大愛叫「我」不再想做別人了。況且雖然「我」沒有父親,卻有天上的父時刻看顧及祂賜的慈母無微的照顧直到她回天家。我真不該抱怨, 而應充滿感恩才對。最後謹以這首深深安慰我的詩歌獻給許多遭受苦難的人們. 的確, 世上的憂傷, 天上總能醫

呈示創傷的心,傾訴你苦悲; 世上的憂傷, 天上總能醫

.*簡介「心有千千結」『Knots』 by R.D. Laing (詳細請按)


無理頭 (心有千千結)










黃郭麗華 文(郭鴻文醫師照於出征前夕. 前排右二麗華)



父親出獄後,雖然面對失去愛兒之痛和許多人生的重大挑戰. 但他以堅定的信仰, 堅持超然的處境, 與世無爭,不貪圖名利、不染俗世,負擔起家長與長兄之責。他一生盡其所能,幫助他的弟妹和教養子女全部都受良好的教育, 並順利成家立業。父親一生熱心公益,協助周遭需要幫助的人, 並不求任何的回報。每年冬令救濟時節,父親除了響應捐款外並發放"施療券」壹千張,主要目的是幫助在地方上生活困難, 生病但卻沒錢就診的人,可以得到醫治。馬太福音63~4: 『你們施捨的時候`不要叫左手知道右手所作的。要叫你施捨的事行在暗中,你父在暗中察看,必然報笞你。』父親一生遵守上帝的教導, 樂善好施, 不在人前談論自己的付出,也常以此告誡我們為善不欲人知的道理。

憶起父親一生,盡都值得我們學習的地方,他對人的愛心更是深刻地留在我們心中.直到我婚後, 還常遇到有些不認識的人,對父親有不住的感謝心.當遇到這樣的景況,其實心裡真是充滿感謝。父親樂於助人的的風範也一直影響我,如今我已定居美國30多年,孩子們也都成家立業,退休幾年來, 我也是竭盡所能地幫助需要的人,並且熱誠款待遠道而來的朋友,我想這就是我們家的傳家之寶吧!





1941 年12月8 日大東亞戰爭爆發之後,1942 年8月發生了轟動全台灣的「東港特高事件」(請參考鍾校上編著「台灣先民奮鬥史」一書)家父郭生章在東港行醫,卻被日本警察捏造誣告成牽涉反日人士, 東港事件之一,被捕判刑十五年,入獄. 直到日本戰敗投降,1945 年10月25日才出獄。
大哥因父親入獄,而停止東京帝國大學醫學院博士研究的學業,回台灣主持醫院的院務。大哥回台灣主持院務,不到半年之久,被徵召當軍醫。全船十字軍船有醫生,護士:雖然在五艘運輸艦,六艘軍艦的保護下,由左營出航到香港,然後再開往越南。1945 年 1月12日上午八時,遭受到美國軍機空襲,三十分鐘全船被擊沉於西貢聖雀水城。
父親雖享年九十, 一生沒再增添房產。他有生之年, 為了喪失愛兒之痛及補償,也負起他做長兄的責任,養育他的弟妹們(共13位)與弟妹們的後裔,和社會上需要教育費的人。每年固定認捐一千張冬令救濟醫療單回饋社會,來記念失去愛子之哀慟
參考資料之一 -- 郭鴻文醫師的父親,郭生章醫師東港事件中被誣陷經過 :

「台灣先民奮鬥史」(p. 563):
東港事件(鳳山事件的擴大: …特務頭子仲井清一不願如此罷休,更指令櫻井勇及蘇某、黃丁等走狗出差東港、鳳山等地亂捉地方士紳以擴大事件。原來黃本在拘留所不堪酷刑拷打,終於被迫供說東港方面也有聯絡機關,由張明色主持。)
19428 張明色被補, 他是日本明治大學法學士, 當時擔任東港漁業組合主事。張氏被捕後,日夜受刑,由日特警私造口供,以誘導諷問方式,強迫張氏供述住在台南市的開業律師歐清石為主謀者,於是歐清石也在九月間被捕。嗣後日特警又脅迫張氏供出東港、新園、林邊、佳冬等方面曾被其勸誘為同 志者,終於釀成183人被補的一大叛亂事件!
日警特高警察老早作成一誣陷系統圖,指歐清石為首領,東港,張明色, 許明和(漁會理事), 郭生章(醫師)等兩百餘人為謀反共謀者. 他們由特警,檢察, 地院及高院等審理三年之久。被告雖有反供辯訴,概不採納,最後歐清石被判無期徒刑,張明色, 郭生章...等被判十五年徒刑,其他十三年、十年、八、七年有期徒刑不等,被押台北監獄服罪
參考資料之二 -- 神靖丸遭難:

...(神靖丸只是運輸船,不是醫院船,船身沒有漆紅十字標誌)有醫生,護士(有看護兵及助手,但沒有女性護士):雖然在五艘運輸艦,六艘軍艦的保護下(這點還不頂清楚,可能是同一船團共五艘運輸船一起出發,軍艦保護好像是到中南半島後才開始,但只來了一艘.也許郭醫師家書中提到 - 但那時只能寄明信片, 不太可能提到軍事机密),由左營出航到香港,然後再開往越南。1945 年1月12日上午8時 (這個時間可能比較接近事實,美官方記載是955,但汐止林老醫師也提到是清晨開始被襲.也許9:55不是當地時間而是美太平洋艦隊基地時間, 或是神靖丸完全沉沒時間),遭受到美國軍機空襲,三十分鐘全船被擊沉於西貢聖雀水域。


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按照林老醫師口述,很明顯當時只有正好在甲板上的逃過了與神靖丸同沒之運.那時從高雄啟航,一路上船上赤痢流行.這也是為何上廁所還要排隊的原因.但是林醫師們真正因禍得福.能夠返鄉繼續行醫,也是地方上的福氣.(按: 我們己知台中州的黃敦厚醫師那時在甲板上抽煙,也是碰巧性的生還.)




這張應該是阿公在醫專的實習照, 因為都穿長醫袍
(註 : 阿公是

這張是阿公在醫專的畢業照, 攝於西元1934年2月8號( 註 : 阿公坐在第一排,面對照片從左邊數來第16位,背景建築物為當時學生的宿舍, 他們稱"學寮)




神靖丸這艘船船名在我唸高中的時候就曾聴我阿公說過, 我阿公是你們記錄上台北州的林坤萍醫師, 我們從戰前到現在都一直住在汐止(因為我阿公就是在汐止開業的—和安醫院, 我阿公在1992過逝). 軍醫日記這本書在我高中的時候家裏也有一本記憶裏應該是吳醫師送給我阿公的(希望沒有記錯, 我家的這本軍醫日記可能因為幾次汐止的淹大水而不再復見), 當時唯一的印象是前幾頁的照片裏有我阿公,阿媽和我爸, 叔叔, 姑姑等人的全家照, 由於那時年紀輕拿這本書在手上時也僅只是翻翻而已, 不太在意. 直到我唸大學有一天跟阿公閒聊時 (應該是講有關游泳方面的事, 像游泳技巧這方面的事) 才從阿公口中知道他曾經也在海上漂浮過一段不算短的時間, 而原因就是神靖丸這艘船被炸沈被迫需要在海上長時間漂浮等待救援. 我還記得那一天阿公還特地拿了一張白紙畫了神靖丸這艘船的樣子給我看(註1)並且將當時的情形以口述方式大概跟我說了一下他如何逃過那一劫, 他說那天天氣還不錯, 因為沒有什麼事(應該要準備出發到下一個目的地吧) 在大家吃過早餐後, 他因為覺得肚子不舒服所以就趕著去厠所間, 但沒想到當天排著要上厠所的人很多, 他看了一下但也沒辦法還是要忍著不舒服跟著排隊…就在快要排到他的時候. 後面一個情況較緊急的同事要求排在前面等厠所的幾位同事能行行好讓給他先上, 也就是因為如此我阿公說他當時並沒有進去厠所間裏(註2), 也就在那時候他們就聴到飛機過來的聲音. 一開始阿公他們都認為他們的船並非戰鬥船支, 所以飛機不會攻擊他們. 應該只會對其它戰鬥艦做攻擊, 但沒有想到飛機後來還是攻擊了他們. 我阿公說一開始他並沒有因為被飛機攻擊而躲進船艙裏, 相反的, 他跟著幾個人跑到船頭收放船錨的圓洞下面躲著, 所以當神靖號快被擊沈時, 他們幾個躲在那船錨洞裏的就一個一個往外跳, 跳進海裏. 從那時候他就開始用漂浮的方式(為了節省體力)等待救援. 我曾回問我阿公說那麼久的時間泡在海裏會不會冷的受不了, 他回應說不會. 以上的陳述在上厠所, 以及躲進船錨的部份是我一生都忘不了的, 因為這是我認為我阿公描述較深刻的段落. 在此我將這事重述出來, 因為沒有幾個人知道.

註1 : 我阿公畫給我的神靖丸號, 我本來有保留下來但過十七幾年來我都找不到了. 圖畫上面我記得他有標記厠所的位置, 艙房的位置, 受攻擊時躲在船錨的洞的位置等等...

註2 : 依當時船上的情形來看, 在吃這方面的衛生條件應該不怎麼好, 不然也不會那麼多的人肚子不舒服, 而在搶進厠所時而遭到…..click below
參考Update 3 - 命大的孫醫師
or click below

特別註 : 很感謝鄭先生將這神靖丸沈船一事以網頁方式詳細地重現事情的源由, 雖然我阿公在這事件得以倖存, 但對於當時同船不幸罹難的所有阿公的同事, 這痛苦是感同身受的.

林頌閔(Jeffrey Lin ) 於汐止

追記: 我從google搜尋「軍醫日記」一書,才發現此『神靖丸』網頁。 我曾經在家有一本,但是已經丟掉好多年了。 然而,我現在相信我的「軍醫日記」已經回來了,因為我已認識你(BH),廖夫人,鄭格主等人,人生真是充滿奇蹟啊!



公元2008年七月五日早上11點,神靖丸戰歿醫師中的淡水鄭子昌醫師和西螺陳茂淇醫師兩家家屬在Waltham, Massachusetts首次見面.當年兩位父親,一南一北,同舟出征.這回陳醫師唯一愛女与夫婿一家從加拿大過來,与住在Boston的鄭醫師獨子一家,也是一南一北,共同經歷,相見甚歡.都是緣份.


鄭母吳女士1987年9月16日在東京的靖國神社才找到奉祀在內的鄭醫師.但她並不認為這應是他的長眠之地.所以在1990年她就預定了墓碑,上面刻了兩人姓名.這就是今年6月6日用來標誌兩位在一起的真正永眠地.陳母林女士和陳醫師也是預定的墓碑,兩人合葬於西螺, 5年前合祠於台中寶覺寺.只是當年聯絡困難,陳醫師戰歿日基於1944年11月出征日,真正乃是1945年1月12日.


從1945 到 2008, 已經63年,瀟洒的說,好像瞬間而過,事實不然.這回會面,只有兩家.只是一個開始.我們相信未來的會面,會有更多家的家屬參加.



敬悼鄭母吳玉葉女士 - Posted by BH

鄭伯母結婚才將近3 年,年紀輕輕23歲多就守寡.

鄭母生平簡介, 請按



合同海軍葬儀,1945年 ( 昭和廿年 )9月3日,於臺北公會堂,海軍警備府。


" 靈安故鄉 " 慰靈碑

1990年11月25日,臺灣臺日海交聯誼會發起,由日本國海交會全國連合會日本全國關心臺灣有志諸團體協助之下,在臺中市健行路臺中寶覺禪寺境內立了一個慰靈碑,以慰在二次大戰當時大東亞戰爭中,在海外為日本犧牲的三萬三千餘年輕寶貴生命的原日本軍人臺灣同胞諸英靈,由李登輝前總統題 " 靈安故鄉 " 在碑上,並記有 " 第二次世界大戰期間 日軍征赴海外磒身 臺灣同胞英魂碑幾個字,寺內並祀有遺靈靈爾簿,(即靈位名冊)。
靈安故鄉! "英靈啊!回到故鄉安眠吧!" 是這個祈願!


Update 11 - 越南施軍爝先生?

Posted by EyeDoc and BH

根據湯熙勇先生(中央研究院人文社會科學研究中心/臺灣史研究所) 2006/03/06 發表的大作: "戰後日本臺僑社會的形成及其特徵"越南有相當多的臺僑, 有關部份照錄如次 (見原文pp 20-21):




又: 附表(三)〈旅越臺灣同鄉會會員名單〉列出施軍爝為32歲,原籍台南縣斗六郡斗六鎮。

"脫下軍服"滯留當地? 還是只是非常巧合的同名同姓同年同鄉而己?

如果有人知道詳情,請告知我們. 謝謝.

施軍爝醫師的公子已與我們聯絡: "...家父戰後生還返家繼續行醫多年,但約餘19年前病逝,享年75歲!"


Update10 陳德煥醫師:第一屆醫療奉獻獎得主

Posted by BH

A web search of "陳德煥醫師" through Google reveals the info shown below - which closely mirrors the 神靖丸 story. Can someone out there kindly verify that this 陳醫師 is one and the same as the one in the 神靖丸醫師存歿名單? Thank you in advance.







Update 9 - 雲林陳醫師

Posted by EyeDoc and Jhen







Posted by jhen


(菱角人生) 林春生


Update 8 - 斗六陳眼科

Posted by EyeDoc

Quoted from a website [臺灣歷史辭典] provided by Hongki先生:

陳篡地醫師 (1907 - 1986) 彰化二水人。日治時期臺中一中畢業,後赴日本大阪高等醫學專校就讀,其間加入日本共產黨外圍組織「戊辰會」,被日警逮捕,服禁錮刑近1年獲釋。1933年 醫校畢業後回臺,先在雲林縣斗南鎮開業,後搬至斗六開設「陳眼科」,並與同市至誠醫院醫生謝玉露結褵,夫婦二人,一為眼科權威,一為婦科權威,傳為當時佳 話。二次大戰期間,受日本當局徵調至中南半島擔任軍醫,官拜中尉... 返臺後, 繼續於斗六經營建安醫院...


[EyeDoc按: 此節尚待陳醫師家屬或友人出面証實.特別是他的"中尉 (應是海軍中佐)"軍人身份,及戰後參加胡志明部隊,和返台後參与228事件事蹟.]


Update 7 - 小港鍾醫師


(-- EyeDoc
to 鍾醫師和夫人: 請保重,也盼望鍾醫師能早日康復)

神靖丸的"故事"是我們從小經常聽家父提起的史實,斷斷續續但可以知道家父當年在船上遇美軍轟炸時,船是在越南西貢港。家父在船倉中,奮勇逃 出並有幸抓住一個漂浮的油桶,但因油桶滑溜不易抓緊,後來再抓住一塊漂浮木板。在海面上漂浮了近9-10小時才得救,早上約8--9點遇襲下午5點左右才 被當地人出來撿拾可用漂流物品的舢舨船救起。救上岸時渾身油污,饑餓難當,也顧不得面子向搭救的當地人乞討水果充饑。為向時住嘉義蒜頭的家母報平安,當時 我大哥才近週歲,他寫信提及他因有事沒參加王(枉)四(死)城先生的邀約,而.......(姓名) 幾位朋友有應約去玩。信中隱藏告知家父自己平安及家母熟悉的幾位朋友已不幸罹難。並與家母約定所有時間,均以兒子生日往前推算幾天來相互知悉。家父後來轉調印尼泗水直到終戰返台。




請代為登錄到Shinsei Maru Site,供有緣人參考,謝謝。



Posted by jhen

我的父親陳茂淇,生於1907年 (明治四十年),祖父陳水發是烏日地方上有名的士紳,經營貨物運輸業有成;父親在彰化第一公學校畢業後進臺北第二師範學校就讀,師範學校畢業後取得教師資格並就任臺中市曙公學校的教導主任,1931年 (昭和6年) 離開教職,赴日進日本大學醫學科,1935年 (昭和10年)學成回臺,在當時臺南州 虎尾郡 二崙庄 油車 開業行醫。

1938年 (昭和13年)一月,與我母親林敏子 (光復後改名林敏敏) 結婚,我祖母與外祖母是要好的結拜姊妹,所以我母親及她的兄弟姊妹都從小就與我父親認識親近,外祖父是西螺名醫林振聲,開設拯生醫院,是當時在鄉下唯一設有X光等最新醫療器材的醫院,加以醫術高明、仁慈為懷,醫務非常煩忙,我父母婚後一年多,外祖父年歲漸高,遂要我父親來到西螺加入醫療工作分勞,從此直到1944年九月被征調,他都是西螺拯生醫院那位任勞任怨無人不知無人不曉的“茂淇先生”。

從我父親遺留下來的幾封書信中,我知道他幾乎每天都要忙到十一二點才回到家,有時半夜還要騎着 “鉄馬"“往診",最後幾張從高雄左營海仁會醫師班寄回的明信片,除了殷殷嘱咐母親勿要疏忽了我的教育外,還關心着外祖父母及家裡大大小小事,甚至還掛念着某幾位病人的病情。記得在我矇矇懂懂的童稚時期,常被陌生人哭着抱着聽他訴說着父親如何醫他救他幫他的故事。





Posted by EyeDoc
on behalf of the surviving sons and daughters of Shinsei Maru physicians and medical workers

and a Happy Mother's Day to all



Update 6 - 西螺陳醫師

Posted by EyeDoc and BH




Posted by BH (Posthumous daughter of
Âng Goân-iok i-sū 草屯洪金江醫師次子)


( 右圖乃爸與他的弟妹們, 他做囝仔王 Gín-á Ông )


Also published in BH's blog site. Click the link below to get to her blog.


親愛的爸爸 :


雖然我也相信您是去了一個好得無比的地方與耶穌同在,因為您生前篤信基督,然而小小的腦袋裡也難免裝滿了許多的疑惑與問號。記不得 有多少次,我呆呆地望著那遙遠的白雲,追問您的去處;有時我也人云亦云地,以為也許真是海龍王把您捉去了,因此多少夢裡,我更是歷盡千辛萬苦地到海底宮,向龍王討您回來。夢醒時卻是熱淚盈眶; 女兒也曾真摯地祈求父神讓我見您一面。終於有一次您出現在孩子的床頭, 輕輕地對我說: 「孩子你真乖! 」我伸手想緊緊地抓住您,再也不讓您離開,那知忽地! 您又不見了!




爸爸!孩子為您感到驕傲,因為您非但活在我們心中,也活在所有認識您的親友心中。更難得的是在您去世將近三十年,卻仍有朋友為您流淚,淚沾衣衫。原來當晚,媽由一 位陌生人的名條,而發現失去聯絡多年的何伯伯時,哥哥並不在場,於是隔天下午我們特地帶何伯伯去看哥哥,剛一見面,何伯伯就很衝動,口中唸唸有詞地直說哥哥太像您了。到了晚上,哥哥單獨帶他去參觀他的店時,何伯伯再也忍不住,上前擁抱哥哥,淚如泉湧,何伯伯事後告訴我們,他深覺您在天之靈特地趕來與相會,令他不能自己地灑下熱淚,這一幕將令哥哥畢生難忘,也令我聽了為之心酸不已。

雖 然,您去世後,我們搬回南部媽的娘家,就與何伯伯失去聯絡,然而我們很快地在媽那發黃的婚照上找到昔日瀟酒的何伯伯,他就站在您與媽的背後,媽且告訴我, 您出征以前在台中車站,因別情依依,只顧與何伯伯話別,竟讓二大皮箱的好東西悄悄地給人提走了。因何伯伯,伯母趕著去加州照顧兒媳生產,因此我們與他在一 起的時間並不多,但我卻像挖寶似的想由他的口中得到一些您生前的往事,同時我也向他傾訴從小對您極強烈的孺慕之思,如何由媽和親友的敘述,以及您留下的許 多照片裡去獲得您生前的片羽鱗爪,企圖在我心中堆砌一尊父親的塑像。

談著談著,我的眼淚不禁在眼眶裡打轉, 終於我用顫抖卻是有把握的聲音,對何伯伯說:「何伯伯,雖然我爸爸的去世是我們家的大悲劇,就殘酷的戰爭帶給許多家庭的悲劇一樣;雖然我無法明白神為什麼讓這樣的不幸臨到愛祂的人身上,然而我深信,有一天我們會與他相見,有一天我們將在天上團聚,盼您也能相信耶穌,在基督裡得這上好的福份,就是永遠的生命,這樣,您與爸必真能重逢了。」

爸爸!相信您在天上會微笑地同意我的看法,因為死雖然奪去了人一切的幸福、希望,奪去我們心愛的人; 然而感謝主,基督耶穌已經勝過死亡的權勢, 由死裡復活;我們因 就有同樣的盼望,有一天 神會擦乾我們所有的眼淚. 因為地上所有的憂傷, 天上都能醫治。孩子渴望著見您面的那一天,願神保守我們直到我們相見。

不肖BH淚筆( 寫於1974)

(日子如飛, 轉眼家母也回天家16 年多了, 母親節將屆, 無限思念, 僅此遙寄舊文追思)